You Can Change Your Dreams

Hilo Nutterettes!

Niki here, I know I've been quiet since the New Year but I've not been feeling well at all... Even though I've basically been stuck in bed, there's been some big changes in my life that I'm really excited about. Over the last few years I had been focusing on becoming a classroom assistant for children who have additional support needs but with my health I haven't been able to complete the higher course which specialises in ASN because of this, I have decided to take a change in what I am studying. 

To those of you who have followed us on social media will know that I am highly interested in photography and have been for many years now so I have decided that after the summer, I am hoping to return to college to study photography where I'll learn lots of tricks and ways to improve what I already can do. For my application, when it gets to the interview stage I have to have a portfolio put together and lately I have been going through all my old folders to look at my photographs I've taken to start putting my portfolio together and it's been bringing back all these memories of how much I loved going around and taking photographs of everywhere I have been. 

Some of my favourite places I have had my camera are; Paris including Disneyland (see below), Gillingham/Rochester, Inverness, Orkney, Malaga and Edinburgh. For so long this has been a large passion of mine and I am excited to get started in this new chapter in my life. The application has been sent in so now all I have to do is wait on the interview date coming through and get my portfolio sorted out, oh and get more practice with my dad's camera as he is letting me use that for the course as it is more professional than my own little one, plus I can change the lenses to get better zoom or wide angled shots. 

Have you guys ever changed the path you wanted to follow? Comment below what you were doing and what you changed to. 

NikiNutter xx

Celebrating With Chronic Illness

Hilo Nutterettes!

Wow, it's been so long since either of us used Blogger... We mainly use our other social media outputs; twitter, instagram, snapchat and facebook... we've not even made any new vlogs lately but it's a new year and that's all going to change! 

Anyway, it's your crazy younger Nutter, Niki, that's talking to you just now... Manda is the old dinosaur (even if it is only by 10 days!) I just thought that I would get a start again and get using this to get out everything that I'm feeling. The weeks surrounding Christmas and New Year are always the hardest for me when it comes to my health, as always I have done the 'boom and bust' which is basically just doing everything that I want and suffering from the pain and tiredness afterwards....

Christmas was a sort of quiet affair, well if you can call a family meal of around 20 of us quiet! We spent the day at my aunt's house (mum's side) where we always have our dinner and I caught up with my big cousin, getting rather drunk... The next few days are a bit of a blur, spent them with my best friends and my boyfriend where we were drinking, went to the carnival and watched films. 

After that, it was a couple of quiet days in the house (mainly in bed) where I was resting and then it was back to my friend's house for a Hogmany party! This was spent once again with my boyfriend and I couldn't have been happier, we played drinking games and all just had a laugh out in the hall where all the younger ones are usually found. We spent the night there then headed to my gran's house (dad's side) where we had some food and another drink. 

The next day was mum's birthday but as she also suffers from chronic health issues like the both of us Nutters, she wasn't up for doing anything so Manda and I ended up heading out to the bingo where, if you follow us on twitter, you will know that we end up going quite often though this time we didn't win anything! That night, we did one of our favourite things... We went a drive to play pokemon go up the braes where we know of a car park where there is two pokestops and two gyms, though this was a bit of a disaster... The car hadn't been used since Christmas Eve when I had dropped things off at Manda's and well... we ended up flattening the battery and it took quite a bit to get the battery started again. Thankfully, we got home and had a laugh about it afterwards but it was a bit scary at the time. 

Since then though, my health hasn't been the best, I have been struggling to even lift my head off my pillow the last few days but I am finally starting to get over the pain but the fatigue is another thing entirely, all I seem to be doing is sleeping. Of course, that is just something that I have to live with, what with having fibromyalgia but it is still really hard. I've been diagnosed for almost five years now and I still don't know how to balance celebrating things with this condition... I guess I just need to realise that I am not like everyone else our age, sure they can all go about and do all these things and still have the energy to do everything else but me? I need to give myself time before (and after) to rest up. 

I hope that everyone has had a good festive period though, as much as I have been suffering the last few days, I still loved every minute of it. Especially on Christmas Day when I got to wear a corset again for the first time in ages... 

What did you guys do over the festive period? 
Let us know in the comments!

NikiNutter xxx